Wednesday, July 1, 2015

summah!



(photo by hrwphoto)

summertime always has me twisted up in a knot of all the feelings
on the one hand, IT'S SUMMER!
the season to end all seasons
on the other hand, IT'S SUMMER!
how am i going to fit everything in we need to do?
but also, what in the world are we going to do all summer?!
twisted.knot.of.feelings.

i've decided this year to say 'the hell with it' and just ride the wave wherever it takes us
said wave took us on a walk into town on sunday
lunch and a popsicle date (thank you krista!) with the boys was just what the doctor ordered
as we were sitting there eating, drinking a beer and watching the ducks swim down the canal
i gave us a mental high five
the weather was perfect
the boys were perfect
when the boys are happy, stone and i are happy
when stone and i are happy, the boys are happy
i got a glimpse of what an awesome little quartet we make when everyone is in sync
now if gus can just sail right through that little fit throwing stage and keep on keeping on
this summer will be one for the record books!

(note: i promise stone does exist, he is just usually at work when my sister and i have our little photo sessions. ha!)

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

BOOM


i have lots of moments
happy moments
'aha' moments
sad moments
thankful moments
overwhelmed moments
'what the hell' moments
tired moments
today i had a 'what the hell' moment
this happens to me most often when things are going just the way i had planned/hoped/thought....
and then out of nowhere they aren't going just the way i had planned/hoped/thought...
henry was elbows deep in a mental breakdown over not being able to eat PEZ out of the leonardo TMNT dispenser 
(the struggle is real)
that then turned into a full blown melt down about this and that and everything in between 
'WHAT THE HELL!'
(breath)
(breath)
(breath)
(silently rage while driving home)
(breath)
it's in these quiet moments that i tend to have my 'aha moments' 
'aha' he is 4 
'aha' maybe he is just as frustrated as me
'aha' life isn't perfect 
'aha' this is parenthood 
and then i have a collision of thankful and overwhelmed moments 
(BOOM!)
this.is.life
my life
our life
and holy shit it's crazy and confusing and wonderful and everything in between 
and maybe it would be easier another way 
but then.....
it's the crazy and confusing and definitely the everything in between that makes it so wonderful