Thursday, June 19, 2014
i've been thinking a lot about this whole parenting thing
it's a big ol responsibility raising these babies!
am i feeding them enough of the good stuff?
are we reading enough?
are we reading the right books?
am i too tough?
not tough enough?
the list could go on for days.....i could drown in my parenting fears if i let myself
here is what i do know...
i know i mess up
i know i lose my patience
i know i cave and let henry have a turkey wrap (and nothing else) for lunch far too often
i know i am a helicopter mom at the playground
i know i slip and say bad words in front of the boys
i know i come up short a lot of days
but you know what else i know?
i know i love them so much
(to the moon and back in fact)
that crazy stupid kind of love
that kind of love that changes you
before the boys i was me
and after the boys i am still me
but a different me
i know i try
i try so hard to be the best version of myself for them
the truest and most honest version
i know when they go to bed at night i have told them how much i love them
i have kissed their faces and breathed their breath
they are a part of me
and me of them
and i know they know that
(photos by hrw photography)
Saturday, April 19, 2014
i've been baking....
......spice cake with homemade cinnamon whipped cream
.....how could i resist this sweet face
giggling with this sweet boy....
.....how could i resist when his giggles are so contagious
i'm nearing the six month mark on being at home with my boys and i feel like i am where i am supposed to be
sure there are days when i feel like shutting myself in the bathroom and crying
but i'm blaming winter and lingering baby hormones
(i shed a tear at an episode of Sofia The First the other day....must get a grip)
i'm so thankful for each day with them
the chance to giggle and play and make memories
it's pretty great
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
every night when i lay down in bed
i like to reflect on the day
i thank the gods for all of my blessings
and each night i pray for more patience
my lack of patience is my biggest struggle as a mother
the other day i was chatting with my sister about mr. henry being a wild man
she said, "isn't it funny when they act like kids....."
cue 'aha moment'
after gus was born henry seemed so much older! (i mean, he and i have full blown conversations!)
but he isn't
he is still just a toddler
a toddler who is having to share is momma and dad with someone else now
i imagine he is feeling just as frustrated as me sometimes
he will throw fits
he will only eat one thing on his dinner plate
he will take out every single toy he owns and leave them scattered about our bungalow
all too soon i will blink and he really will be much older
....and then i will be chatting (read: crying) with my sister about where the time went!
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Thursday, February 6, 2014
so......i'm 30, pushing 31
i think i might be a grown up
i don't wear lipstick
or a bra
but i decided it's time to start getting serious about my skin
fine lines and wrinkles are now a reality
a reality i am happy to greet with a smile
which apparently just adds more fine lines and wrinkles
(c'est la vie)
(c'est la vie)
i can't tell if it's erasing my crows feet
but i do feel oh so very grown up when i put it on
so there's always that.....
so there's always that.....
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Monday, January 27, 2014
did you know there is a product sold in stores called 'your breastfriend'?
i'm sure it's wonderful and does/is everything is says it will be...and more
i can't handle it
but that's neither here nor there
in the short time i nursed henry, i remember wondering if/when it would ever feel like his tiny mouth wasn't lined with razor blades
i had to mentally pump myself up to put that sweet boy to my boob
i attribute my lack of success in nursing henry to new mom anxiety and not listening to my instincts
i decided to approach nursing gus with a positive casual attitude
if it worked it worked
if it didn't it didn't
each baby is different
why should i have the same problems with one that i did with the other......
gus is a boob guy
i mean seriously
this kid likes to nurse
and other than feeling like i have my shirt off 82% of the time
i am happy