Saturday, August 2, 2014

feeling it....


the windows are down
the smell of the city is blowing by
the breeze is messing my hair
my arm is out the window, dancing in the night as the wind whips by
i'm feeling it.....
not just kind of, but really.....feeling it.
the wind, the smells, the noise....the deep summer air
that heavy weight of those days that i can't remember how they already turned into nights.
i think i'm at my best.
i'm not care free
....i'm never care free
but i'm hopeful
and happy
i'm content and full of everything i never knew i wanted
i see stone
and his handsome face
a page in the book of our lives
.....i think (i hope) it might be a good book.





Thursday, June 19, 2014

heavy


i've been thinking a lot about this whole parenting thing
it's a big ol responsibility raising these babies!
am i feeding them enough of the good stuff?
are we reading enough?
are we reading the right books?
am i too tough?
not tough enough?
the list could go on for days.....i could drown in my parenting fears if i let myself

here is what i do know...
i know i mess up
i know i lose my patience
i know i cave and let henry have a turkey wrap (and nothing else) for lunch far too often
i know i am a helicopter mom at the playground
i know i slip and say bad words in front of the boys
i know i come up short a lot of days

but you know what else i know?
i know i love them so much
(to the moon and back in fact)
that crazy stupid kind of love
that kind of love that changes you
before the boys i was me
and after the boys i am still me
but a different me

i know i try
i try so hard to be the best version of myself for them
the truest and most honest version
i know when they go to bed at night i have told them how much i love them
i have kissed their faces and breathed their breath
they are a part of me
and me of them
and i know they know that


(photos by hrw photography)

Saturday, April 19, 2014

lately.....


i've been baking....


......spice cake with homemade cinnamon whipped cream

playing peekaboo.....


.....how could i resist this sweet face

giggling with this sweet boy....



.....how could i resist when his giggles are so contagious 

i'm nearing the six month mark on being at home with my boys and i feel like i am where i am supposed to be
sure there are days when i feel like shutting myself in the bathroom and crying 
but i'm blaming winter and lingering baby hormones 
(i shed a tear at an episode of Sofia The First the other day....must get a grip)
i'm so thankful for each day with them
the chance to giggle and play and make memories
it's pretty great 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

my aha moment



every night when i lay down in bed
i like to reflect on the day
i thank the gods for all of my blessings
and each night i pray for more patience
my lack of patience is my biggest struggle as a mother
the other day i was chatting with my sister about mr. henry being a wild man
she said, "isn't it funny when they act like kids....."
cue 'aha moment'
he.is.three.
after gus was born henry seemed so much older! (i mean, he and i have full blown conversations!)
but he isn't
he is still just a toddler
a toddler who is having to share is momma and dad with someone else now
i imagine he is feeling just as frustrated as me sometimes
he will throw fits
he will only eat one thing on his dinner plate
he will take out every single toy he owns and leave them scattered about our bungalow
he.is.three.
all too soon i will blink and he really will be much older
....and then i will be chatting (read: crying) with my sister about where the time went!



Tuesday, February 11, 2014

i could spend all day smooching gus


seriously
i could
don't even get me started on how much i love his milk breath




(photos by www.hrwphoto.com)

Thursday, February 6, 2014

wrinkle release


so......i'm 30, pushing 31
i think i might be a grown up 
maybe
i don't wear lipstick 
or a bra
but i decided it's time to start getting serious about my skin
fine lines and wrinkles are now a reality
a reality i am happy to greet with a smile
which apparently just adds more fine lines and wrinkles
(c'est la vie)
i've been trying out RoC Retinol Correxion Eye Cream



i can't tell if it's erasing my crows feet
but i do feel oh so very grown up when i put it on
so there's always that.....

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

must have


i'm a sucker for pretty much anything striped
couple that with chunky baby legs
and you've got me sold



baby gus is going to need these asap!